Brown reminds me of myself. At some point in my life, I used to run away from deep connections. Didn’t want to do anything that’ll make anyone want to stay in my space or get too close. Didn’t want to open up or be vulnerable cause that meant come kind of connection, one that I really didn’t want to have. I never really thought of why, cause it was an unconscious action, so it never really occurred to me that I was doing it… until it finally did. And somehow, I knew it had something to do with past connections that hurt the heck out of me. But I’m healing now, getting better at connecting with the right people, and learning from past broken connections what I did wrong, and how to get better.
Thank you for sharing these masterpieces—both parts.
You’re amazing, and your penmanship is captivating…keeps one glued till the very end ❤️
I can relate to this because I know I'm always saying things like “this is how I am” with this air of finality like it's who I am and it cannot be changed. But then, sitting to think about it, I've started to recognize patterns that I'm consciously doing away with so I can have healthier relationships.
I'm glad you read this and shared your thoughts on it. Thank you for the compliment. I enjoyed writing it as well.
It stirred up more than a lot! Growing up as the first child and granddaughter on both sides made me grow up too fast and eventually alone. Now, couple that with hurts from friends and guys I loved.
These made me know people, but I chicken out when the relationship starts to get deeper. It's a lot and like you say, I am not a chick, I'm human, so I am still in the process of unlearning and relearning
We're human and recoil is a normal response to hurt, but when it starts to affect future relationships, we have to take a pause and check. Unfortunately, most times, we don't.
I'm also a first and only daughter and it can be lonely sometimes. I think that maybe if I had a sister, I might have been a better communicator. Either ways though, now, I'm learning to communicate better thanks to friends I finally let in.
Brown reminds me of myself. At some point in my life, I used to run away from deep connections. Didn’t want to do anything that’ll make anyone want to stay in my space or get too close. Didn’t want to open up or be vulnerable cause that meant come kind of connection, one that I really didn’t want to have. I never really thought of why, cause it was an unconscious action, so it never really occurred to me that I was doing it… until it finally did. And somehow, I knew it had something to do with past connections that hurt the heck out of me. But I’m healing now, getting better at connecting with the right people, and learning from past broken connections what I did wrong, and how to get better.
Thank you for sharing these masterpieces—both parts.
You’re amazing, and your penmanship is captivating…keeps one glued till the very end ❤️
I can relate to this because I know I'm always saying things like “this is how I am” with this air of finality like it's who I am and it cannot be changed. But then, sitting to think about it, I've started to recognize patterns that I'm consciously doing away with so I can have healthier relationships.
I'm glad you read this and shared your thoughts on it. Thank you for the compliment. I enjoyed writing it as well.
P.S: Brown's chicks are so pretty
It stirred up more than a lot! Growing up as the first child and granddaughter on both sides made me grow up too fast and eventually alone. Now, couple that with hurts from friends and guys I loved.
These made me know people, but I chicken out when the relationship starts to get deeper. It's a lot and like you say, I am not a chick, I'm human, so I am still in the process of unlearning and relearning
We're human and recoil is a normal response to hurt, but when it starts to affect future relationships, we have to take a pause and check. Unfortunately, most times, we don't.
I'm also a first and only daughter and it can be lonely sometimes. I think that maybe if I had a sister, I might have been a better communicator. Either ways though, now, I'm learning to communicate better thanks to friends I finally let in.
Learning and unlearning is all we can do for now.
Precious, you have evoked something in me. I cannot express my thoughts beyond this sentence for now but I'll seat with the questions someday.